When my mother was in hospital dying of cancer she wanted to know what my goals were. She was getting a kick out of telling the hospital staff that even though I was a grandmother she was still bugging me to get my homework done (I was doing the Master Gardener program at the Devonian Gardens at the time), but she also wanted to know what I wanted to do with all that I'd been learning. I told her I wanted to be a Polymath. I'm not sure how much of my answer was a joke and how much was truth. I love to learn!
This, as you know, has led to balance in my day to day life being a struggle for me. Incorporating Kung Fu properly into that already busy life has been a struggle. It's not a bad thing, just a recognition, another learning. When I decided to become part of the I Ho Chuan (IHC) team it was a case of "challenge accepted!". I needed that challenge. For a long time I've been needing to learn where to "trim the fat", to decide what's important enough to keep and what I should let go. Until I started IHC I had trouble realizing that the "fat" needed trimming.
But balance isn't just a theme in that sense, it is also literal. As I've gotten older my balance, and my confidence in my balance, have diminished. Even standing on one foot on the mats and pulling my other knee up to my chest was difficult at first. It's been frustrating because such things used to be so easy! It's getting better. I can FEEL the progress in that. Now it's the kicks that are bothering me. Especially the kicks that involve spinning. I'm terrible at them! I'm going to keep going and trust that eventually these too will get easier, but tips on getting there are welcome too.
Thus I'm working on balance everywhere, literally and figuratively.
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