Perhaps I shouldn't be writing this right now because I'm really not in the right state of mind. However, it is part of the journey, and we're supposed to journal about that. So here goes.
I'm frustrated! Isn't it too soon in the I Ho Chuan (IHC) year to be frustrated?
We all have lives, responsibilities, outside and inside our Kung Fu and IHC lives. Many of my team mates have journaled about this. But it doesn't stop me from feeling frustrated. At the start of the IHC we were asked what we wanted or expected to get out of this. Personally, I was (am?) hoping to learn ways to achieve more balance, as well as vastly improving my Kung Fu skills of course.
You probably have similar obligations to these:
Home and Family
obligations to family
obligations to household
obligations to the animals in my care (the chickens are laying so many eggs!)
Work
obligations to clients and customers
obligations to continuing education
obligations to professional organizations
obligations to the college I teach for
obligations to students
obligations to the government (i.e. taxes, business licenses)
planting season - time to do the indoor seed planting starts this week
plant propagation
herb planting and tending the garden
harvesting and storing
dispensary work
Spiritual Life
prayer and meditation
attending events
the 19 day Fast just started on Sunday - No food or drink from sunrise to sunset. That should make things "interesting"
I Ho Chuan obligations
1000 form practice
1000 weapon form practice
1000 rounds of sparring
record 1000 random acts of kindness
1609 km of travel under my own power (walking, etc.)
obligations to attend meetings and classes
community service obligations
50,000 each of sit-ups and pushups
performances
journalling (this blog)
etcetera
Somewhere in there is, or should be, the obligation to look after myself so that I'm capable of looking after all the other obligations.
It would be one thing if I were ditching an obligation to simply be a "couch potato" but my frustration is that my obligations are keeping me from my other obligations. I see other people who appear to be able to accomplish so much more and I think, how come I find this so hard? No one has any more hours in the day that the rest of us.
That aside, I have found that moving away from digital somewhat and going "analog", has been helpful in my planning and organization in ways that I never expected. It just hasn't stopped the obligations in the way of obligations problem. Oh well, one step in front of the other...
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